Wednesday, February 24, 2010

You're a pain in my back

Somehow aging is not that graceful. Yes we are told on a daily basis from women like Isabella Rosellini, Susan Sarandon, Sharon Stone and everyone else that is 40+, how much they enjoy their new found confidence, sense of self and experience, they feel as they become older. To me getting older is just a pain in my back. I agree, yeah I feel more confident, I feel like I don't need do things or say things in order to make others happy; except for my clients in which case I've gotten better with age at pretending. Thing is I feel great emotionally and psychologically but it's my back, my eyesight and those annoying mammograms that flatten your breast like a pancake, that remind me that I am getting old. Maybe this is nature's biggest joke. Your mind is 150% optimal, working all for you, but your body is now at 75% and declining, it's telling you that although you think you can work at your best, putting in long hours, you will feel it on your back, on your neck. That even though I would like to think that if I tried hard enough, long enough, I could perform a double axel. It ain't ever gonna happen, not in this life. What I don't even want to think about is when my mind and my body both start to go. I have one word: euthanasia. At that point in my life, stick a fork in me, I'm done.

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